Mind plays Tricks to You.

Wouldn't you like to know what's happening to you? Why does that thing comes to your mind every time you're off? Why you aren't able to forget? Why you can't expulse that from you?

That's because you have hate in your soul, in your mind those scenes have found a comfortable, sweet and warm place where they can make you go crazy by placing more pain on you. It's like you brain is setting you up. Traps on every corner, every time you have a moment alone is nothing awaiting for you but pain, sorrow, agony and desperation.
Your mind plays tricks to you, mean and evil tricks and you're falling for them.
But, what is it that you want? What does your mind want you to go for? Revenge....!!! ???
It will never make your pain, frustration and anger go away, it won't heal your wounds. It won't make you feel any better...

Maybe that day your heart died and came back to life only to be killed again, maybe it was meant to suffer.

How could you be sure of that since no one knows why we are here?
Guess you'll just have to wait and see...