"Mind Works In Some Misterious Ways."

A few days ago I was talking to someone related to me, very closely.
She said that she was feeling strange because she has no memories of her whole childhood and the most of her youth. She loses her mind cause in her attempts to forget outrageous things that have happened to her she ends up erasing her good memories completely, her good memories and her friends, everything but what she wants to forget.
In the other hand... I do not achive to forget anything.... I remember everything since I was two years old, I dont miss any part of my life.
God knows what Id give to forget some periods of my life, things I do not wish anybody to go through, to ty to live with.
There are memories that are so painful that you feel that living is not worthy and you wish your death...
I have been thinking about this during months and I have reached just one conclusion: the reason why you get this worse-than-hell memories; the reason you have nightmares, the only one cause, the faulter is no other than yourself, cause you deserve it. Why?.... Because you looked for it, because you hurt someone and you deserve to be cursed. You must be. You deserve to carry on with those painful memories the rest of your life.
It is like some sort of divine punishment because of wat you did.
Not only words hurt, thoughts, bu most of it your actions. There are many things you could do to make people feel miserable, humilliated, rejected and a very few to make them feel comfortable. In most of the cases you choose the first one.
What you give is what you get returned.


Traitors ...
... once I was one.


If I could only forget...